Tuesday, December 01, 2009 @ 8:39 PM
Birthday this year was a very simple affair of dinner at Sakura Buffet. Oh my god, i got really excited seeing the tonnes of variety of food that they had! Though some of the bad reviews (read online) was pretty accurate, i did appreciate those prawns (cooked in all ways), steak, shark fin soup and so on.

And of course, you cant complain much when you've a good company with you too. I feel old knowing that we've gone through several birthdays already but i take comfort that despite the years, we can still hold our conversations. We dont run out of things to talk bout eh? And your creative birthday cards never fail to amuse me each year! I still dont get it how you can fail art last time?! haha..

Whatever it is, i appreciate all the birthday wishes. It's sweet to know people remember. Unless you're those who saw the reminder on facebook lah.hahaahha.. Kidding! And to dearest Mrs Miller , Mrs Darul and not forgettting Sam, thank you for the gifts. I seriously love them.You guys are crazy. And i like crazy people =P

Saturday, November 28, 2009 @ 7:45 PM
If i were a fish i think i would just be like Dory from Finding Nemo. But since it's a fictional fish, then in reality i think im as close to an Electrolux Addisoni.

As i reflected upon this year ( i like to do that when im nearing a birthday), it's quite unbelievable that i went through all that. But unscattered? haha, Not really.It probably has changed those things swimming in my head. I guess it really was a test of character and the person i was. You dont grow up by going through the good things in life. You grow up by weeping, suffering , pretty much be in a state of crap and most importantly, get out of it. Eventually. You wont learn anything if you dont get out of it.

Cheer ups of the year would be the league (woots), going through the coaching course (think ive learnt a lot there), some moments in school (ok fine a particular class that is.haha) and some moments with a good friend of mine (guess who?).

Low moments? I would have to write a self-help book on that. Everytime i think i bout it, ive the urge to get out of Singapore and like lie on a beach or something and just listen to the waves. I call that Hydro therapy.haha..

Anywaaaaaaaay, im seriously bored. And my partner in crime is a "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy" mode. So make that doubly bored. We're seriously not fated to have fun man since our schedule always clash :(

Eh partner, aku betul betul bosan tau. Maut sia!

@ 1:22 AM
Absence makes the heart grow fonder...and for my case, it makes the mind wander too.Looking at the situation now, ive found the best birthday gift.

Thursday, November 26, 2009 @ 2:02 PM
I remember tearing a bit (really A BIT) when i sent my brother off to school on his 1st day. The small 7 year old boy looked so lost in the queue and a teacher had to guide the herd of lost sheeps up to the hall. I was telling myself, "Welcome to real world brother. You're finally going to be one of us".

Dont you think so? A kid in Singapore will never know what life is like till he or she finally enters school. The start of stress, mugging, grades, crushes, good friends, enemies,work,slack, cca and all those good and bad times of life.

And so fast forward 6 years later , my brother (still small in size) still has the dazed look that i remember looking when he was 7. He was nervously waiting for his turn to get his report book from his form teacher. I couldnt remember exactly how i felt when i was waiting for my PSLE results. I think at that time, i didnt realise the importance and significant consequences it bears. It was more like another ordinary exam to me. haha..

It didnt help when the Principal said that our of 455 kids, 441 made it. Everyone (more of the parents actually) was cheering and clapping excitedly over it. I was thinking more about the poor 14 who didnt made it. Obviously, no one was thinking about them. Gosh, 14 out of 455. It would really suck to be in that 14. I got all nervous because for as long as i can remember looking at my brother's past results, he could be in that 14 =X And then my brother made it worst by saying, four of his classmates have failed so far.

Ive never seen my brother carry himself in such a serious manner. When he walked up to his teacher and she excitedly told him that he made it, he was still in a daze. But this time, it wasnt coz he was lost. It was plain surreal for him that he actually did so much better than what he had long expected. It was truly inspiring to see the teacher talk to him. She was so motherly and yet her words carried such conviction and strength. She reminded him to never be scared of asking questions (when in doubt) and that things will happen if he works hard. It was a touching moment when she held his face with both her hands, look straight to my brother (still in daze) and said those words. As my brother nodded over each her sentences, he was close to tearing.

Dammit i was close to tearing too! Oklah, actually i did. A bit!

Seeing how she embraced each of the students , reminding them that miracles do happen and that they have actually made it......it really justifies the meaning of teaching. MOE's "What is your passion" advert is damn cheesy and artificial. They should shoot this instead!

Guess i got all inspired again just by being in that hall for an hour. Teaching really isnt about the grades (though yes much of the work evolves around it), it's about making that impact, no matter how small or big to the kid. It's about giving that kid a chance to be a somebody in this world.

Really proud of you bro :)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009 @ 1:11 AM
Kinda think of it, the kezillions of messages that i keep in my handphone is like an alternate journal to my life. I mean, ive messages that i keep from 2007 man. And they all tell stories many of which ive actually forgotten about.

There was this particular bunch of messages that brought me back to a certain period of time.And it sucks to actually be clearer of the situation after reading it now. I get that sense of helplessness all over again. Why was i blinded possibly by my dumbness and emotions then. Why couldnt i see it at that time.

Why why why..and now i really do wish i could turn back the hands of time. I cant believe i was such an ass. To not see that opportunity that was literally standing right in front of me. It could have been my second chance.

Im sorry for being the person i am that time. Im sorry i didnt appreciate the good things i had in life.This list will go on and i think i'll still be in this sorry,silly state.

Time heals all wounds.Eventually. But that doesnt mean things will remain the same. And that sucks.

Monday, November 23, 2009 @ 8:28 PM
Lady Gaga's so ridiculously peculiar, weird and out of this world. Her songs, videos and sense of style are something people cant easily digest to. And yet, as freakish she can be, it's eventually becoming appealing to me. It's growing on me and settling nicely into my pores.

And im sooo in love with her Bad Romance video! Go catch it! It's so weird, ive no idea what exactly is the storyline backing it, the grand outfits confuses me and yet, im intrigue by the mess she's leaving in my head.

Can somebody teach me the dance steps to the video too?! Definitely cooler than the cheesy mambo moves.haha

"Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah,
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance"

@ 1:40 PM
So that neither of us would be either bored or stressed up.


@ 1:06 PM
Why oh why did they make Megan do that scene. And hence i became a fan of her for only those mere seconds. Before i switched back to reality and continue wondering what's all the fuss over her.haha

Im floored.

And as of today, im just a week away from turning 23. Nice number eh? ;) Ive someone keeping me in suspense all this while.......and i cant wait!

Sunday, November 22, 2009 @ 6:18 PM
What a laaaaazy Sunday. It's not even a week into the holidays and im bored already. Not complaining though. haaha..Dont thk ive the chance to say 'im bored' once i start teaching!

Cant wait for tues and hopefully wednesday too. Days with plans!

@ 12:59 AM
I blame my genes for my inquisitive nature. I really really hate it. I hate the way my mind starts eating itself up when i wonder and not get the answer at the end.

And i guess, thats why im the type who rather get slap by the harsh truth than to be ignorant or in denial over the matter.

Anywaay, i think im handling it better now. So i intend to focus my mind on that. haha

@ 12:28 AM
The only reason im thankful for the existence of Tumblr is that the art that springs out of all the pictures is simply inspiring.

Cool shit really.

I think i might just start saving some of the cool graphics, go to a shop and have them printed on a plain t shirt.

Then i'll have really cool shit tshirts to wear! =P

Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 1:30 AM
I had a terrible nightmare on Thursday night. It made me cry and when i woke up, i continued to sob.

Weird..to actually realise that you're really crying in reality as well.Got me all confused for a few seconds. The nightmare was THAT bad.

Despite the bitterness in it, im glad and thankful that reality itself is so much brighter and sweeter. It's a huge irony that with the weather being all gloomy and cold the past weeks, it happens to be the period where im truly happy. And it's been sometime since i actually feel..well..happy. Happy with no worries. Im smiling both on the outside and inside.

But i do not intend to get carried away by it all. For I know, life is full of roses and shit.haha

I appreciate the day where im happy and if tomorrow goes all gloomy instead, i'll patiently wait for another day to come to bring me back that bag of sunshine. Life is nothing but a cycle. So that day, should be coming back again, eventually.

"Think of the positive things"- by a certain pessimist turned optimist. haha